I knew August was going to be an interesting month but I really had no idea. It hasn't even started yet and I'm already dreading it. Luckily the temperature has been cooperating, but I'm still getting bigger and a bit more uncomfortable each week. My right hand at work gets married next weekend so I'm flying solo for the next 2 weeks. Add to that a newly announced presentation to senior leadership and our CEO a mere 9 days before my due date and you have a thoroughly stressed out pregnant lady.
I know I can do it, I was just not really THAT concerned about going early but now I'm kind of terrified. What if I do go early? What if there's no one to give this presentation or to prepare it? I'm clearly needed at work and I can't just be out right now.
My company has been amazingly supportive and flexible with me when I was battling the pain and exhaustion of shingles by letting me flex my time, head home for naps, work from home or finish my day on off hours. But now, I see that I'm still very much needed and not "off the hook" (for lack of a better phrase) on the work front. I'm going to really need to push through the next 2 weeks and crush it until the very last day I can.
Luckily we just had our talk about pain management during labor and about how you should only focus on what you can handle now and in the moment and not what you think you can handle in an hour or two. That seems to transition quite well to this scenario. I just need to take the next 3 weeks day by day and do what I can in each day and not focus on how I will feel 9 days before my due date, presenting to our CEO and likely trying to squeeze into anything I can that looks presentable at that point.
But now to worry about the hour by hour, the day by day. To steal a play from the Birth Journeys playbook "I.Can.Do.This"
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