It's amazing to me that already we've had to research and interview daycare centers at this point in my pregnancy. But waitlists bow to no one and I'll be damned if I'm sending my kid just anywhere.
Honestly, wrapping my brain around leaving my baby with someone else while I go work before I've even met or kissed him/her (yup before it even has a gender!!) has been a lot to handle. I've had a lot of internal conflict about it.
Is this the right place?
Do they have enough curriculum?
Will these teachers even be here when my baby comes to daycare?
Is their schedule at the right times?
Who will pick up/drop off?
There's just so much to process and so many things to consider while I'm still trying to figure out the best way to plan a baby shower pig roast!
Luckily I have amazing friends who help me realize I'm not alone.
Today a fellow preggeroni sent me a link to this blog and it says everything I will likely say or have said in a far better way than I can ever say it myself. While I'm not currently a working mother, I will be. And I'm sure I'll struggle with it. We're currently going the daycare route because we can't afford in-home help, but (at least at this point) it seems to be about the same kind of situation.
I'm not sure I'd have the strength to work from home and put on headphones as not to hear my children while someone else played with them. It takes an incredibly strong person to do that. A person with resolve and drive to be a successful woman as well as a mother. That is powerful. And gut wrenching.
I will be lucky to come back to my flexible position at my amazingly supportive company after I've had time with future bambino and my baby will be out of sight but surely not out of mind. But at least I won't have the added stress and internal conflict of "oh just one more song" or "she's sick, we should cuddle". Because, well, I just don't think I could resist!
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